Many the Miles

Not even a week and already I'm crying.

I used to think that crying is something the weak do

but apparently, it's a part of the process. 

The adjustment process.

I haven't created a home away from home as yet.

I've entered into an arranged marriage 

signed a contract for the next 4 years

that I cannot break easily

given that I can't afford a plane ticket home just yet.

I will have to stick it out. 

Make friends, join associations

learn about myself and find out just how strong I am

personally and academically

This is my time to step into the shoes that will take me to a whole new level of maturity or a new level of understanding my limitations.

I really hope I have what it takes to make it out alive

and with a PhD

If not, I'll be very embarrassed, 

but at least I'll know that I tried 

As much as this adjustment process is difficult, 

I don't want to just give up. 

When I have my PhD, I wish I'll remember this day and smile or cry.

I hope I'll remember Sara Bareilles and the song that cheered me up somewhat "Many the miles"

"There's too many things that I haven't done yet
Too many sunsets
I haven't seen
You can't waste the day wishing it'd slow down
You would've thought by now
I'd have learned somethingI made up my mind when I was a young girl
I've been given this one world
I won't worry it away
But now and again I lose sight of the good life
I get stuck in a low light
But then Love comes in

How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
But send me the miles and I'll be happy to follow you Love

I do what I can wherever I end up
To keep giving my good love
And spreading it around
Cause I've had my fair share of take care and goodbyes
I've learned how to cry
And I'm better for that

Sing how far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Send me the miles and I'll be happy to
Follow you Love

Red letter day and I'm in a blue mood
Wishing that blue would just carry me away
I've been talking to God don't know
If it's helping or not
But surely something has got to got to got to give
Cause I can't keep waiting to live

How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
But send me the miles and I'll be happy to yeah
How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
Been talking to God don't know if it's helping or not
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
Oh send me the miles and I'll be happy to
Follow you Love

There's too many things I haven't done yet
Too many sunsets I haven't seen " -Sara Bareilles Thanks so much for this song :)